With the pain of a broken friendship comes the time when you need to forgive. But forgiving is not the same as forgetting. It's much harder to forget that hurt that goes so deep. I recently realized this when I felt my blood pressure rising over the simplest thing....someone who heard the rumors about me will no longer even look at me. I guess it shouldn't bother me. After all, were they really a friend if they didn't even ask my side of the story? Needless to say, I felt myself grow agitated, and had no idea that this person could still indirectly do this to me. The pain is obviously much deeper than even I thought possible. I still have so many unshed tears. I don't take friendships lightly, so to have something thrown away so easily really bothers me. Don't get me wrong, there are 2 sides to every story. The hurt is not so much from what happened but the things that were said about me. They hurt greatly and I lost many 'friends' because of those hurtful words.
So, how do you forget? How do you get to a level of not letting it bother you? You see, we go to the same church, so its unavoidable to never have to see/hear about this person again. God has taught me much through this trial, but I still haven't learned how to let go of the hurt. I just keep praying that someday God will take the pain and replace it with understanding.