Out of the 5 deliveries I've had, only one was 'normal'. The other 4 had complications, each one with a different issue. Unfortunately, my deliveries seem to get harder the more I have, so the thought of having another one has been scary for me. Very early on in this pregnancy I told my doctor "I just want to be a statistic." She looked at me funny. Then I explained myself. Statistics have shown that the more children a woman has, the early she goes into labor and the quicker her labors are. I have defied those odds with all of mine. She said that I needed to tell myself over and over, (and I quote) "Say 'I am average' and then believe it." I took those words to heart that day and have repeated it over and over.
Then a friend suggested I read the book "HypnoBirthing". I'm not into hypnosis (and told her that) but she said there were a lot of good suggestions in the book. I decided to read the book. I would take from it what I could and leave the rest. By page 3 I knew exactly why I was supposed to read the book. Fear creates stress and tension. When you have stress and/or tension it is counterproductive to your contractions and will actually slow your labor down. (Put aside the 'problems' I've had, I've also had very long labors). I'm still working on it, but from that point on I started to feel some relief about my upcoming delivery.
Today I got home from my dr. appt. and really felt like I was supposed to open the Bible and read something. I picked it up and opened it. What I was looking for was in Proverbs but as the Bible opened I looked down. God wanted me to see something else.....The very first thing my eyes saw were:
"The Lord is with me; I will not be afraid."
Psalm 118: 6
From this moment on I'm going to keep reciting that over and over to myself. I'm planning on God doing something amazing. I have some great testimonies from this pregnancy already and I can't wait to see the testimony that comes from putting my trust in Him.